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All my thoughts keep flowing like a river
Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like, you have been swimming on the ocean for a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown And you swim back to land
When you get there you just feel so heavy because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach as you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time
And you just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel It was never yours to keep
And somedays you'll miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves and you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees, or hike hills, or just run really fast
Letting go is not easy There's nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea And you are just you
I have to let go
I find myself waking up at the beach again.
Delete all sad pages
I want to change the ending
Today, i feel something or nothing,
I don't know how to feel right
Sometimes I just feel nothing at all,
Sometimes I will find myself smiling
While missing something at the same time
Something that never exist!
You're just my illusion.
.No matter how close I get to a mirage,
I never can touch it.
I don't own an image.
I can't hold a creation of my own mind.
My heart is bleeding
I am missing someone right now
Whatever happen I've to stay away from him
Because I do not want to ruin everything
Bleeding keep bleeding
If only word could stop the bleeding,
I'd write the chapter endlessly
I will let go this shitty feeling
He will never know this story
Dear heart, my hands shake a lot. I cry easily. The world frightens me. I have always picked myself up with my own two hands. How I stay up all night to talk to him, to anyone. How I stopped writing about death. You know how waking up stopped feeling as heavy?
But listen to me my dear heart, you have always been strong.
You have the hands of a warrior after a battle.
Your teeth have always been strong, your eyes always beautiful.
Destroy the idea that you are doe-eyed, wounded thing.
Destroy the idea that he is your savior.
Destroy the idea that when he leaves, all your strong will leave with him.
Listen to me, you are so much more than you know.
Listen to me, you are your own savior
It's okay I'm not
chapter you have
but I hope you
when you flip
back to the pages
I was still apart of.
Sometimes people comes to my life to show me what is right and what is wrong, to show who I can be, to teach me to love myself, to make me feel better for a while, or just to be someone who walks with me on those night sharing problems and stories. Not everyone is staying forever, and me?
Yes, I have to keep on going and thank them what they've given me.
Whatever happen thank you for everything.
I'm fading away
you aren't even noticing..
Maybe this happy ending doesn't include a wonderful moment
Maybe it's me, myself
picking up the pieces and starting over
freeing myself for something better in the future
Maybe the happy ending is just moving on.
How I wish....
Sunset is the prove that goodbyes are not necessary sad but it could be beautiful too
No right to feel
I know I don't own you,
And perhaps I never will,
So my anger when you're with her,
I have no right to feel.
I know that you don't own me,
And I shouldn't ask for more,
I shouldn't feel so let down,
All the time when you're with her.
What I feel - I shouldn't show you
So when you're around I won't
I know I have no right to feel
But it doesn't mean I don't.
" I know what we are and what we are not"
So.. I will choose
Lie or truth?
The night is setting and not alone.
All the thoughts start flowing in our minds.
I know everything.
The connection of my mind and heart fully connected.
Then, I realised that
"Telling a truth and making someone to cry is better than telling a lie just to make someone smile."
Lie or truth?
The game of life.
I will distance myself but always look up for the sky
"I may be far but never gone"